the Women I Have Made Cry
by Ryan Mattern
women I have made cry will return in the discordant clanks of wind
chimes. Conduct themselves with the bent antennae of lost cockroaches,
find themselves drowned in the dewy brown eyes of coffee mugs. They are
sparrows flapping against wind until they snap their necks in pockets
of dead air and tumble across the highway as used paper napkins.
see it happen: when I steal Tricia Long’s pen and tell her that glasses
are for dumbbells; when I call Jennifer Edling a prude and leave her
alone in a limousine on prom night; when I refuse to go to Rachel
Peck’s father’s funeral. In these moments, wrought of red faces and raw
noses, of quick gasps and baleful moans, the women I have made cry
become the unsettled wisp of brick dust.
We are driving to
your mother’s house. Neither one of us is wearing our wedding ring. You
ask me if I am going to behave myself. I ask you when you’re going to
fuck your boss again. It happens then: as you turn away and tuck
yourself into the corner of the seat, that you cover your eyes and sob.
I know it is only a matter of time before you are greyed-in, moving in
still-frames across my mind like a strobe-lit phantom.
|Copyright © 2013 Ryan Mattern